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I Know Where You Sleep

You filthy swine how dare you think that you can make me kill for you and then not even be there for me when I need you the most.
You are no man, sure you make walk like a man and talk like a man but you are not a man.
You made me kill a life, an innocent life for you and then you weren't even there for me.
You were the reason that I tried to take my own life and then I got locked away where I was tortured and made to believe that everything was my fault and that I was to blame.
I know the words you used to bury me in your bed,
to impale me with your sword of flesh,
you enemy of mine who took away my innocence
and made into the whore I am today.
You tricked me and then you play the victim because what I took matters into my own hands and made you pay for your sins.
I know that was like your biggest fan but now you cannot hurt me,
I am stronger than the poor little niave girl whose innocence you stole away with your clever words and tricky actions.
I know the words you'll use to get me to back down but they will not work this time on me,
you can fool me,
manipulate me into being your little doll.
You are an arrogant faded star,
and I am only here the destroy you
because of what you made of me.

I know the sickening thoughts that slither around your head.
I know the gluttonous guilt that buried me in your bed.

You think that I was like all of the others and would just quietly fade into the background of your past?
Well at first you had won but then you came back again
as if I would've forgotten what you made of me.
Your pride is poisoning the truth you hear.
Your a poor pathetic paranoid but I think
you secretly enjoy it all.

I know your tainted flesh.
I know your filthy soul.
I know each trick you played.
Whore you laid.
Dream you stole.
I know the bed in the room in the wall in the house where you got what you want and ruined it all.
I know the secrets that you keep.
And I know where you sleep.

And so I shall fair well as you take your last breath.
You are now dead and it is time to die.
I murdered for you and tried to kill myself for you well now I am slaying you monster,
filthy animal.
It's over but then truth comes back to haunt me again
and realize what a foolish girl I had been.
Oh �my God I touched you,
I can never live that down.
God save the queen,
I loved you I can never live it down.
Oh, oh, I fucked you I can never live it down.

You disgusting creature I can't believe I ever touched you.
You filthy swine I can't believe I ever loved you--
You never loved me.
You faded star I fucked you
and that was always it was
ever meant to be an empty fuck.
Not a physical token of our love.
You are dead.
I am alive.
Who's laughing now?