Acceptance

If I died right now, I just pray God accepts me  
I've let lust and greed and hate misdirect me  
I've allowed my pain to make feel entitled  
I've lied so much with my hand on the bible  
I know its such a shame
The way in which I've been presenting myself
Not as a reflection of you
But of someone else
I've forgotten the times you've protected me  
When I needed a leg to stand on  
And when I was so small in this large world  
You have me everything to expand on  
I feel cursed at times  
Alot of the time to be honest  
But my presence is because of you  
Through love,this is what binds us  
I lose sight of the blessings  
Through all of this pain  
Forgive me for my sins  
For happiness I used to gain  
You've stuck with me  
When I was a child, I read the whole testament  
I used to pray all the time  
The best ways to let you in  
My only protector  
A shield I always misuse  
If I died right now  
I hope you'd let me be with you