Dad

I'm sorry it had to come to this,
It wasn't my intention to run away.
I just feel like something's amiss,
I'm unhappy every night and day.

I feel worthless,empty,and confused
I've felt this way since the age of ten.
My dad was a drunk that liked to abuse,
It was his way of turning losers into men.

I've resorted to self mutilation for awhile,
It made me feel normal to some extent.
But shit like that shouldn't be for a child,
No matter how much it made sense.

If you can relate to this then I feel for you,
It's the kind of life that none should know.
I got beat up until I was black and blue,
It hurt badly but I didn't let my anguish show.

People who hit kids are pussy mother fuckers,
They're so miserable in life that they like to disable
They take theirs rage and frustrations out on others,
My dad destroyed me and that's why I'm unstable.