Blaze of Glory

   Sitting in the dark,
I am all alone.
My self-imposed prison,
That’s become my only home.
  Bound in iron chains,
They’re locked around me tight.
Tightening with my struggle,
Choking down my spite.
  My own internal battle,
A war rages inside.
Determination vanished,
Swallowed whole by my foolish pride.
 I’m lying to myself,
I’m starting to believe-
The story told to others,
Vain attempts to deceive.
  Telling myself tomorrow,
Will finally be the day.
That I finally stop the madness,
Stop living life this way.
  Precariously stacked around me,
Lies on top of countless lies.
Until all come crumbling down,
Right before my eyes.
  Going down in a blaze of glory,
Ruins just like each time before.
Seem doomed to repeat the damage,
All warnings quickly ignored.
  The truth could set me free,
Maybe even save me in the end,
But I’m powerless to see it,
Clinging to my only friend.
  My friend who comforted me in sickness,
Helped me live thru all this pain,
Is now stealing the light from inside me,
As it takes my life in vain.