5: 62:  The Empty Heart

Excerpt 62 from Journal 5: 'Reaching My True Love'
   -from 'Journals to My True Love Part 2'
 
The heart has its dark corners, its hiding spaces
I get lost there in the dark breathing so shallowly
to conserve air, how you visit me in vain,
how I see you through this dust veil I reach to  
touch your hair how silkily it slides through my
fingers so I grab on harder trying to hold you
and keep you here your magic eludes me the
magic of you being here against the odds;
my new found love to replace the old;
I feel his resignation as he slips away so
easilly as you appear, your eyes sparkle as
his once did, my body craves you as once did
his it screams in pleading for fulfillment
yet I see you barely as nebulous as he once was
you resemble him but not completely yet I don't  
care I only want you now but you don't know;
I won't tell you every secret I posess;
replace him now and stay as he
flies away into the night as the gargoyle
he is becoming he is like a bat that comes to
life in adversity and squalor but you come to
life here, in my midst, in this dark corner;
oh, how full is the empty heart....