Panick...attack...

Subjugated
To feel the pain of others
Who never seem bothered
To care in return.

Overwhelmed with empathy
And others needs
That swell to greed
Finding no joys of my own.

Heart and mind races
Joints and bones brace as
Tendons like laces
Seem to tighten ‘til torn

Senses immensely embrace
Every sight, sound, smell, and taste
While staggering to pace
The in and out of my lungs

Muscles start tensing
Thoughts throbbing, and wrenching
The panic entrenches
Fists clench into stone

Anxiety turns every feeling to one
I rush to find a door to close
And the light fades to none
I’m swallowed by sorrow as summer turns cold

As the one sided effort
Of relationships reality
Slips past the filters
Of mental safety

It’s time to take time
To be alone.
And try to find
My way back home.

From this absolutely terrifying
Endless :
Loneliness,
Emptiness,
Blood curdling bitterness
Pulsing through my brain
Beating my heart,
My lungs,
My throat
Everything is insane