Intimacy

What´s the definition of intimacy?
I guess it´s: “see in to me”
But that will never be
As long as these walls don´t break down
I am confined in an emotional lockdown
I know I have the keys but I cannot open the doors
My ego-the guards are armed with shame, fear and guilt to beat me down with brute force
Until I surrender because it is too hard
But you don´t see the prison you see only a beautiful facade
A face that is masked with a smile to deceive you
I hope one day somebody will see trough
And help me tear down the walls
Letting me see beauty where I see scars
Like a light uncovering what has been obscure to me
Bringing up all that I buried in me
I grab your hand and walk to a foreign place with you
I feel free and there is no need to rebuild the walls because I can trust you

But where can I find you?
Maybe I recognize you by seeing my own facade mirrored in you
Don´t worry because I understand you, I feel you
I will make you aware of your blind spots and the fallacy you have in your thinking
Sooner or later the walls will be shrinking
And you will be flying free transformed into a butterfly
If I am worthy don´t leave if not, I have walls to fortify
Maybe it´s not possible because we don´t fit together cause in my mind it´s night
You are a beautiful butterfly and I am an ugly moth seeking for the light
I heard a wise man say that female and male are complementary
maybe we meet and unlock each other, seeing in ourselves and treating us complimentary