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Infidelity
2:45am
Here I am, again.
Waiting on your return...
And by that, I don't mean home...
I am waiting on the man who promised to love me,
in sickness and in health.
Because he is the man, for whom I yearn.
In these past few weeks, there are some things that I've learned.
That you are not that man, only an impostor.
Because that man would never cheat on his wife,
instead he would be making his marriage prosper.
Finding ruby red lipstick and a woman's scent on your clothing
and the fragrance nor lipstick is my own.
I should have known when you were coming in late every night
and I'm here raising our kids in our home.
For so long I've been in denial, thinking you were doing right by me.
Even when proof was there, right in front of me.
I turned a blind eye, pretending that I didn't see.
Because we took a vow, I am your wife
I never thought you, my husband would cheat on me, I could have betted that on my life...
I've never been the woman to search through your phone
or even your facebook messages.
The thought never once crossed my mind, but now I am hesitant.
Tonight when you fell asleep, you left your phone on the nightstand.
Here goes nothing, Alexsa, now is your chance.
Your passcode is easier than I thought, I'm surprised that it's our anniversary date.
And as I begin going through your messages, the emotion of nervousness
is soon replaced with hate.
Scrolling through your messages with more than one woman, on your facebook page
coming across the messages, "Thanks for tonight, I can't wait to see you again babe."
and, "I'm alone again in this room tonight, I sure wish you could have stayed."
As the kissy face and heart emojis appear tears began running down my face.
I soon realize I cannot continue witnessing your infidelity.
It's like in your own way, you are saying you don't want to be married,
so to hell with me.
I put your phone back like it's never been moved,
then I started packing, because one of my worst fears have come true.
I awake my children after I packed all of our things,
and on the pillow of our bed, I leave a note, and my wedding ring.
The letter stating, "I've loved you with all of me,
but I guess that wasn't enough. Please don't bother looking for us,
because we will be long gone by the time you awake.
Our lawyer, he is no longer yours and will be representing me
in this case.
I will be filing for divorce, and I apologize because this notice is short.
So I wish you happiness, this is goodbye. I'll see you in court.
Love,
Your soon to be Ex-Wife."
I feel as though a weight has been lifted off of me,
and I pray that this haunts you, for that, you can thank your infidelity.
- Poetic Gawdess
Here I am, again.
Waiting on your return...
And by that, I don't mean home...
I am waiting on the man who promised to love me,
in sickness and in health.
Because he is the man, for whom I yearn.
In these past few weeks, there are some things that I've learned.
That you are not that man, only an impostor.
Because that man would never cheat on his wife,
instead he would be making his marriage prosper.
Finding ruby red lipstick and a woman's scent on your clothing
and the fragrance nor lipstick is my own.
I should have known when you were coming in late every night
and I'm here raising our kids in our home.
For so long I've been in denial, thinking you were doing right by me.
Even when proof was there, right in front of me.
I turned a blind eye, pretending that I didn't see.
Because we took a vow, I am your wife
I never thought you, my husband would cheat on me, I could have betted that on my life...
I've never been the woman to search through your phone
or even your facebook messages.
The thought never once crossed my mind, but now I am hesitant.
Tonight when you fell asleep, you left your phone on the nightstand.
Here goes nothing, Alexsa, now is your chance.
Your passcode is easier than I thought, I'm surprised that it's our anniversary date.
And as I begin going through your messages, the emotion of nervousness
is soon replaced with hate.
Scrolling through your messages with more than one woman, on your facebook page
coming across the messages, "Thanks for tonight, I can't wait to see you again babe."
and, "I'm alone again in this room tonight, I sure wish you could have stayed."
As the kissy face and heart emojis appear tears began running down my face.
I soon realize I cannot continue witnessing your infidelity.
It's like in your own way, you are saying you don't want to be married,
so to hell with me.
I put your phone back like it's never been moved,
then I started packing, because one of my worst fears have come true.
I awake my children after I packed all of our things,
and on the pillow of our bed, I leave a note, and my wedding ring.
The letter stating, "I've loved you with all of me,
but I guess that wasn't enough. Please don't bother looking for us,
because we will be long gone by the time you awake.
Our lawyer, he is no longer yours and will be representing me
in this case.
I will be filing for divorce, and I apologize because this notice is short.
So I wish you happiness, this is goodbye. I'll see you in court.
Love,
Your soon to be Ex-Wife."
I feel as though a weight has been lifted off of me,
and I pray that this haunts you, for that, you can thank your infidelity.
- Poetic Gawdess
Published 5th Jun 2016
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I hope this is just good ole fashion imagination, a fictional piece created from a beautiful mind.
If not, then oh gosh! My heart broke reading this! Your gut feelings and woman's intuition kicked into over-drive, which is why you waited for him to go to sleep so you could confirm.... what you already knew. Damn, I feel the pain in this ink. So sorry this is your story! :(
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"And as I begin going through your messages, the emotion of nervousness
is soon replaced with hate."<--- with time, that hate will be replace with strength and triumph, because you already had the courage to walk away.
Love&Light xo
If not, then oh gosh! My heart broke reading this! Your gut feelings and woman's intuition kicked into over-drive, which is why you waited for him to go to sleep so you could confirm.... what you already knew. Damn, I feel the pain in this ink. So sorry this is your story! :(
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"And as I begin going through your messages, the emotion of nervousness
is soon replaced with hate."<--- with time, that hate will be replace with strength and triumph, because you already had the courage to walk away.
Love&Light xo
13th Jun 2016 4:56pm
You were right the first time, it is just my imagination I have not wed as of yet, BUT when or if I do I pray that this is far from my reality. Thank you for your sympathy and kind words though as always they are greatly appreciated Tara (:
Love&Light xoxo
~ p.g
Love&Light xoxo
~ p.g
5th Jun 2016 4:25am
13th Jun 2016 4:57pm
Thank you poetik, but it is just a fictional piece that I've created. Xoxo
~p.g
~p.g
16th Aug 2016 4:47am
That is very intense!! This painted an absolute vivid picture! Masterful work! Thanks for sharing.
17th Aug 2016 2:08am
17th Aug 2016 2:11am
