'him'

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your scent fills my nose
my mind begins to dose
everything is grey
nothing to do but pray
even that; crossed out
nothing to do but pout
surrender
In which center?
blood
it begins to flood
scars over scars
more like stars over stars
ferocious thoughts
life in knots
your lips appear in my mind
but you're hard to find
your no where in reach
its easier to mentally screech
blade digs deeper; pleasure rises
he was never a keeper; another day full of criticizes
my lids pop open
heart still broken
his chocolate brown eyes
he spoke nothing but lies
did he mean it?
was he gonna admit?
i long him
specially when the lights are dim
but im his last thought
or maybe; he forgot
Another slash
turn me into bitter ash
nobody will notice
for them; itd be easier to focus
another rip; tear in my bare skin
tears within
when did this all begin?
when will it all be over?
where is the lucky clover?
he made flowers grow in my lungs
although they were beautiful; oxygen never reached my tongue
he was everything
i was nothing
he stole my heart; master at theft
with it; he left
and to my myself i kept