Better days

Been better then the day before still every days a struggle, trying to remember what I learned yesterday, it's funny how the past never really goes away ,always on my mind always in my thoughts, it seems like the whole worlds up against me every time I take one step forward it's two more in reverse, its anever ending cycle cuz

Hook: I'm torn down by these memories unable to break free self destructive tendencies keep me unable to succeeded

You keep reminding me of all those times I've skrewed up but refuse to recognize all the time I took the weight on my shoulders becoming the parent at the age of seven while you where missing in action, promising you will be there but how can you say that if you haven't been from the start?

It's a trip to me to think I've been through more shit before the age of eighteen then most will ever go through in their entire existence, I've witnessed loss first hand while crying on the deathbed of the one I truly loved, I've been beaten abused and used by those claiming to care , been looked straight in the eyes as they told me they hoped I would die , I tried to take my life I tried to run away but I can't escape reality, god knows why so I hold my head up high and tell the world I'm to young to die.

Hook I'm torn down by these memories unable to break free self destructive tendencies keep me unable to succeeded


Fighting with my demons and thought of being gone late at night when I could only bring harm to myself, building my walls up so high they became a prison in my mind of who what when and why , unable to cope with the pain I felt inside, I acted out at every turn spiting in the face of authority refusing to back down


I'm exhausted by the struggle of doing everything wrong maybe it's time I grow up and change the rhyme of this song because I may just be an entity in this universe but I will leave a mark on anyone who crosses me even if it's just a distant memory,because I refuse to be forgot or only thought of as a disease , cuz not a single one of you is better then me we are all equal in this vicious cycle of life . and the best thing I could be is the better me