MUSSELS IN MY ROOM

Ana I'm so sorry, for how I did you wrong    
   
but then again you started it    
I tried to get out    
but you weren't having it    
   
You said you were persuasive    
Well wasn’t that the truth    
made me mussels after we broke up    
had us eat them in my room    
And tried to fuck    
   
Later you were sorry    
Your last night in town    
We lay in your bed and watched TV,
even though it was over,
you wanted your whole last night with me.

I have to say I was touched.
   
And I let you kiss me to say goodbye    
Cuz you asked, and then you flew away    
Into the sky    
   
And I missed you-    
On the warm days that made my body feel    
Like the days when we first met    
When we chatted on the porch    
And you set your sights on me    
The queer girl next door    
Proximal and gay(ish)    
That’s all I had to be  
 
Sure knew how to make a girl feel wanted    
Then again I didn’t either    
You bought me flowers and gave them sheepishly    
Expressing your heart--with an asterisk  
 
No one had ever given me flowers before though.  
So I kept the petals even as they dried  
and you saw them later and said  
"what the heck are those"  
I didn't tell you    
   
I brought you to thanksgiving like a college orphan  
and nobody suspected    
Why would they I guess    
you were just my “friend”    
   
I broke your heart you said    
But two months later you had me on the phone    
Telling me the next one    
she was the best you ever had    
Fuck that!  
  
But it’s okay though    
I kind of deserved it    
We both fulfilled our roles    
Each becoming what the other feared most    
   
And now we talk on the phone    
Though the frequency dwindles    
and I don’t think you even know    
that I’m dating a boy    
haven't mentioned that one... 
   
I don’t know who you’re with    
But I hope that she loves you fiercely    
And I hope that you are fulfilled    
With challenge and ease    
tho we fucked each other up a bit    
my dear Analisse