Trying..

I'm trying to hold on...
I'm trying not to give up..
Your everything I want
But yet I'll never be what you want
I was nothing more than entertainment
If only just for a few months
To shake me off
You started to self sabotage
But yet I still stayed...
I never gave up..
Even when I knew your heart was leaving
I still tried
Sometimes I laid there staring wide awake
Sometimes I'd fall asleep
Dreaming of you and the happiness you make
But then it would all change...
I'd dream of how you'd walk away
Those words ringing through my head
"I don't love you, I never did"
I'd wake up crying
I'd tell you and you said "never be afraid
I'm not leaving
You can't get rid of me"
I believed you
I trusted you
Only to see those words weren't true