The break down

Damn i just had a mental break down, its hard when you found out that a spouse left you from word of mouth, its hurts like losing first round in boxing, i hate when someone come in cock blocking, I'm going to tell you the truth yes i love you, i shown it and i meant it but sometimes we all get naive so you had to do what you to had do, the other night i was crying tears, i can't cry in front of you because that will look kind of weird, so i put on a smile just to make me feel good, that night it was tears of a lover, tossing and turning in the bed going back and forth now a days we are losing connections like service sucks,  its hard to hear you say things are not going to be the same no more, if someone ever do you wrong BABY girl we are going to war, i still feel the same way i never lost it, i wish i can take my pain away and put it in my pocket, it will put a dent in your heart when your ex lover show more to another person or another lover except for you, it sucks what a real lover go through, sleepless days and sleepless nights its getting really hard to fight, every day is not easy i want a woman that is going to please me,  nothing will never be the same until you come back to me, if you come back forget them other females I'll drop everything for you, every since you left me i been having crazy days and sleepless nights,  i can't hide my feelings from you its HARD to fight it, fighting your feelings is like holding your work until the end, if you come back baby we can start all over again, don't kiss me and say goodbye just love me and say come here, ditching guys and doing something for me that how i know its real, give me your heart so i can take the pain away FROM people caused you, its hard EVERY day since you walked out, i was just so upset that you listen to what this guy say, the way i feel now you is going to be the last one because I'm still holding a spot for you in my HEART,  hoping that you will come back, i just want one night with you so i can hold, cry, and we can do all this together i promised to make everything right oh i forgot,  you gone but I'm still trying to fight for you, don't you get it i still care,  i really don't want you to go nowhere i just hope you understand before my heart is gone.