Once a player I guess always will be

i don't know when or if you ever will read this. but I'm hurt beyond all reason. i cannot find the words to start describing this.
i know it was wrong of me to go through your messages. It's only because i wanted to see our pictures from our last trip and stumbled upon other kiss pictures that were not us. it killed me inside like a thousand daggers piercing my heart, so i just needed to know and i guess my suspicions of her were true all along. guess it's angelica all over again but i dont know if i can take it.
i still love you but i cannot accept Tortice as a friend. and i cannot accept isaiah either since he obviously is the one that was your photographer.
no one will love you like i did but i hope that she loves you enough for you to get out of that darkness i so desperately tried to save you from.
i dont want to see them at all for a while... maybe tomorrow it won't be as bad, everything did just happen today after all. i hope you didnt hurt yourself too badly. but i have no right to demand any explanations and it seems that even as friends your trust towards me is limited. hopefully they are able to help you more than i did. because i still dont see how a world can be without you in it. i love you, always have and always will, but don't worry. I'll keep it to myself from now on so i dont confuse you or ruin your secret relationship with TT
I'll try to get help from Sheccid to not be in your way. but don't expect me to be nice to her.

03/29/2016
SVO

P.S.: i heard you fucking in OUR bedroom, so you can keep that bed and I'll take the twin bed, and the dresser; if you want the twin too (for isaiah) that's ok with me. i can figure something out. but i dont want the queen bed anymore. you take it.