Returning to my addiction

I didn't want to do this,

I really tried to stay away

But honestly it's something I kinda miss,

But at the same time leaves me feeling nothing but dismay,


Writing these poems, pouring out my heart,

Trying to lessen my pain,

But it's hard for me to control once I start,

I simply have no other choice, I'm going insane,


I have to channel my emotions into something, somehow,

And with nowhere else to turn for a release

Returning to writing I must allow,

For any hope of even momentary peace.


So my painful pain relief begins anew,

Because honestly I don't know what else to do.