Tired of Loving

i dont want anyone to love me because,
then i have to love them back.
loving people is painful,
loving people takes time.
in a world where making money takes time,
and loving people is easier with money.

i dont want your love
you make me realise what a horrible person i am.
how much i have been damaged.
im tired of trying
im tired of dying
your love is killing everything i have ever worked for
keep your pain, your love and care.

why does my heart yearn for death so much.
a soft touch, that makes things better?
this love bites with teeth coated with a numbing cream.
selling me a happy future that is just a dream.

keep your dreams i am awake now.