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I'm sitting in a remote not so far
My eyes shut and my mouth shouts silently
My existence, no existence
My perseverance to this life struggles
They all mean  nothing
They all just make me sick 
The rage of the pain mutes
Wailing child heart pours tears over my reality
Vanishing  the real world
Pain engrosses my sensitivity
Conceal my naked thought
Till it bursts out boldly straight to your face
A grasp to serenity is a capture of a moment 
For they stand there, carefully looking at me
Watching over my guise as my mere floss eats me
My feet stand grounded, voluntarily making their own pace
For the ground will not open, jus let me run fast
Let me run fast, I cannot break it even
A monster inside of me growls harderand
I fear it more than anybody
It is calm but furiousIt is clean but grouchy 
Let me run fastLet me run around the circle
For this hate I have for myself will never end
But this same hate makes my soul alight