A woman's broken heart

You were married for years but never in a million did you think you would be here.  
You have been waiting on the tears to disappear.  
Betrayal has no color but it's a killer of will and will have you looking over your shoulder.  
Trust is knocking at your door wanting in but you know better.  
Cupid had an arrow for you but you thought he at least shot two.  
Now memories are all you have to hold on to.  
You're so confused wondering where it all went wrong.  
You're bitter trying to get over the damage dealt to every piece of your heart you own.  
All of the it will get betters in the world won't take it away.  
You want to move on but you stuck you like you want to stay.  
Is it too late to let it go you don't even know.  
You have blamed yourself for so long it's like case closed.  
The pain you deal with nobody knows.  
You ready to recover but when your mind has been so clouded it's hard to see the road.  
It's been so much time lost.  
Now you don't want to give love an opportunity because you don't want to pay being hurt agains cost.  
You have been so jaded by giving your heart and what did you receive for giving your last.  
You have been on point waiting on him to get up on task.  
So he wants to fix what you don't want to give back.  
You are so distant he might as well pack.  
Because he is getting nowhere fast you know he sees the numbers on the dash.  
He say he wants to try but you don't think his drive will last.