Love and ED

worthless 
ugly
stupid
did I do something wrong?

I shouldn't have moved that 
way
why did I tell him to switch 
positions?
what's wrong with me?

don't cry
don't cry
don't cry

breathe
say something
this isn't a big deal
I just feel ...
so sad

I wish I could turn him on
make him hard when he sees my 
body..like in the beginning
hard when he's inside me

am I too loose?
I need to tighten up more
I think
Would he like anal better?
I'm afraid it will hurt again

don't cry
smile 
it's so hard not to sob
smile
say "I love you" in a non-pitying way

It's not his fault
I feel so bad
to make him feel 
embarassed and deflated

I shouldn't have caught him 
off-guard like that
spontaneity isn't like it used to be
I feel so unattractive
 used up

smile
kiss him
once again
Only let the tears flow when he can't see them fall