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Just Sometimes
Sometimes, only sometimes can I appreciate a stupid man. I don’t mean uneducated or ignorant, but a man who is naive enough to go oblivious to my insecurities.
Go blind to all of the things that I despise looking at in the mirror, the ugly features that seem to stand out so much to me, it’s as if he literally cannot see them.
Now, is this stupidity? Or a man who is madly madly in love? The way this man looks at me, puppy eyes full of love.
A jaw line that drops every time I enter a room. Hands so soft yet so aggressive against my body, it’s as if he’s never felt anything better.
Sometimes it disgusts me.
I am disgusted because I feel that it is a lie. How can someone look at me with these eyes and not look away?
How can someone feel these stretch marks, rolls, and chipped finger nails not remove his hands?
Sometimes I take a dark thin brush to my eyebrows. Sometimes I use foundation and eyeshadow against my face and I look up.
Now I can see what he sees. Now with my shiny lip gloss and long eyelashes I can feel confident and I can agree with all of the beauty he points out to me.
But he says no,” baby girl I see this beauty all of the time, not sometimes.”
He tells me he sees this beauty when he awakens in the middle of the night and stares at my eyes closed.
He tells me he sees this beauty when he wraps his hands around my waist and I move his hands to make sure he does not touch a stretch mark.
He sees this beauty when I shy my fingers away so he does not see my unpainted fingers, unparted hair or get too close to my imperfections.
" But baby girl you are beautiful to me always, not just sometimes."
Go blind to all of the things that I despise looking at in the mirror, the ugly features that seem to stand out so much to me, it’s as if he literally cannot see them.
Now, is this stupidity? Or a man who is madly madly in love? The way this man looks at me, puppy eyes full of love.
A jaw line that drops every time I enter a room. Hands so soft yet so aggressive against my body, it’s as if he’s never felt anything better.
Sometimes it disgusts me.
I am disgusted because I feel that it is a lie. How can someone look at me with these eyes and not look away?
How can someone feel these stretch marks, rolls, and chipped finger nails not remove his hands?
Sometimes I take a dark thin brush to my eyebrows. Sometimes I use foundation and eyeshadow against my face and I look up.
Now I can see what he sees. Now with my shiny lip gloss and long eyelashes I can feel confident and I can agree with all of the beauty he points out to me.
But he says no,” baby girl I see this beauty all of the time, not sometimes.”
He tells me he sees this beauty when he awakens in the middle of the night and stares at my eyes closed.
He tells me he sees this beauty when he wraps his hands around my waist and I move his hands to make sure he does not touch a stretch mark.
He sees this beauty when I shy my fingers away so he does not see my unpainted fingers, unparted hair or get too close to my imperfections.
" But baby girl you are beautiful to me always, not just sometimes."
Published 23rd Feb 2016
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24th Feb 2016 3:13am
This really speaks to me! As a woman it's so easy to see the beauty in others but not myself at times. And when someone tells you that you are beautiful in a genuine way, it's easy to doubt. But maybe they aren't lying:)
24th Feb 2016 1:36pm
This is piece many women should read n try to realize that there ARE in fact, at least a few of us REAL guys who see beauty in women who don't think it to be true! believe
in your guy until, or unless he proves to be lies.
in your guy until, or unless he proves to be lies.
