Reminiscing

Reminiscing the day we met,
Memories make me smile,
You were flawless - still are,
The atmosphere was just right,
For us to fall in love,
Mutual and unconditional,
You still are ny soft spot,
My breath you took away,
Wearing a light dress,
Adorned with a smile,
Accentuated with your beauty,
Crowned with your intelligence,
You charmed, delighted and amazed ny being,
Perfect eloquence with a matching body language,
Naturally unnatural to find,
Especially in this day and age,
But I did,
I thank God,
And I lost,
I blame myself,
You wanted steady,
I moved too fast,
You compromised,
"Maybe" you thought,
I wanted more time,
So did you,
More lips,
As did you,
More skin,
Hesitation,
More love,
Withdrawal,
Too fast,
Resentment,
Retrospectively I don't regret it,
Better fast than slow,
Better to have had it than not at all,
Better regret than "what ifs?"
But torn between the two,
Maybe we'd still be together,
I seek solace,
To be oblivious of your absence,
Oblivion is unattainable,
You still keep coming back,
At 3 a.m,
When its cold and empty in my bed,
Maybe in the future,
I'll hopefully replace you,
Farfetched - perhaps,
Why?
"I still love you"
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You are,
Always will be,
The perfect lady,