A Poem of Despair

Always achieve what you'll never believe
Soon you will see the side of me.
The real side;
I won't commit suicide if you can find the sign.
The sky is grey as you can say.
The world I see today has gone away...
to the past,
when we are in the now,
when our friends are making vows
to be the best,
better than the rest
Last night before next year
hearing things I don't want to hear.
I see my parents fight inside the sark night.
I try to stay out of sight, try not to cry with all my might
They're nipping each other off with the last bite.
Remembering the sunlight of happiness.
Flying fast, flying high,
watching the bad things go by
but I stop and see what is happening to me.
All this misery I couldn't see opens up in front of me.
The dark blue sky brightens a rainbow to a brand new day
to sink away
I die a little inside
Help me before I wake