Fairy tales are for kids

I spilled my heart out
My chest ripped wide open
You can see my heart pound
It was a deafening sound
Sweat dripped from my face
Nervousness bubbling up
I told him my past and how I feel
Will he want me still?
It's quiet, apart from my heart
Tears build up in my eyes
One falls then another follows
He breathes in deep and swallows
My heart begins to break
I should of known
Silly me, why would he love me?
My ugly past he doesn't want to see
Before he says a word
I'm running away
Chest heaving I voice my pain
He probably thinks I'm insane
I feel arms surround me
Embracing me he holds me
His breath heavy in my ear
"I still want you near."
My heart feels like it's swelling
Taking over my chest there's no air
My tears still streaming down my face
Time seems to stand still in place
"Your beautiful, no matter what your past holds"
He kisses the trail of salty tears
This can't be real, I'm dreaming, pinch me
I don't get happy endings, it's never meant to be
So yeah of course I woke the fuck up
My conscious is once again making up lies
I don't want to dream anymore, to fall asleep
I'd rather count pills than count some sheep
I grab the bottle, take a large swig
My heart still pounding, it hurts
I drink and drink, til the dream becomes blurred,
I drink and drink, until my words become slurred
I fall into the comfort of my own bed
Once again sleep tugs heavy at my eye lids
Fairy tales are for kids