You call yourself what?

You call yourself daddy, that must be a joke-
What gives you the fucking right-
That is not a title that you can just be handed-
Yes, you gave me your sperm, so that I could have her-
Along with all the pain and hurt-

Where were you when she was born-
Not sitting with me for a month in the, N.I.C.U ward-
You were out getting high on that stuff-
Home at last after that long, exhausting month, you
r present to me was a beating with her in my arms-

So I ran away out of state, hoping to rid myself of
you, my biggest, "Mistake,"-
It took some time, but our hiding-place, you found-
And for my wrong-doing, you made sure that there was hell to pay-
You locked my baby up when she was just a year in a room in her
bed all day and wouldn't let her out to learn and play-
When I finally got you out, you kidnapped her, with
knife to her throat-

Now from a prison-cell you write cards and letters
addressed to the one that you denied-
Signing them, daddy-
What a fucking lie-
She has never seen them, cause she has a
real daddy in her life now-

One day she may know of, "My Mistake,"-
And where I got all my fears and scars, I have to display-
But till that day, I will avoid you like the plague you are-