My Prayer

DEAR GOD CAN YOU HEAR MY PRAYER DO YOU SEE MY CRY  I ADMIT I CAME FURTHER THAN WHERE I WERE BUT I STILL REST JUST 2 DIE. SUICIDE IS NOT 4GIVEN SO ITZ SUMTHING I HONESTLY CNT DO BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH I’M FED UP & JUST WANNA TRULY B CLOSE 2 YOU I HOLD MY HEAD & SMILE DAY BY DAY HOLDING ON TO EVERY WORD DHAT YOU SAY BECOMING NUMB FASTER THEN I CAN BLINK FEELING OH SO LIFTING YET FEELING HOE FAR I TEND 2 SINK CHAIN SMOKING ON THESE PORTS TRYING TO CATCH MY BREATHE SPEECHLESS LYKE A MONK CAUSE 4 WORDZ I HAVE NTN LEFT POPPING ALEVES DRINKN MY LIQOUR RUBBING MY HEAD WANTING 2 SLIT MY WRIST BUT QOUTING BIBLE SCRIPTURES INSTEAD PUTTING YOU 1ST MAKING ME 2ND I BE SO ITZ DHA LIGHT AT DHA END OF DHA TUNNEL I SEE THRU YA GRACE POWER LOVE & MERCY DO I PREACH ROCKING BACK & FORTH SAYING DHA PARADISE I WANNA REACH STUCK IN THIS WILDERNESS ONLY 23 PULLING OUT MY GRAY HAIR CAUSE DESPITE IT ALL I STILL CARE THEREFORE I SHARE THRU EVERY OUNCE OF MY BLOOD SWEAT & TEAR AS OVER TIME DHA DEVIL WORK LEADING HIS CURSE BOND BY HIS MARK DHA YING & YANG DHA LIGHT OF MY DARK CALL IT DHA DESTINATION OF MY SOUL  DHA FIGHTING TEMPTATION OF BECOMING WHOLE WHERE ALL MAKE SENSE BUT SENSE COUNTS FOR NTN DHA COUNTERDICTION OF DHA RISE & FALL OF SUMTHING BOILED BE MY BLOOD SO NOW I CNT SLEEP PLEADING 4 INSANITY YET SANITY DO I PLAN 2 KEEP GOTTA FULL CIRCLE YET ABANDON EMOTIONS OF ALONE CAUSE & EFFECT OF A RUSHED CHILDHOOD & DAMN NOW I’M GROWN TRULY REAPING WAT U SOW AIN’T DHAT HOW IT GO BEING CRUXIFIED 4 DHA SINS OF MY CRIMES DHAT I MADE BEEN 2 COURT & ALL YET STILL NO DEBTS BEEN PAID BLESSED HOWEVER PUT THRU DHA TEST IN A CATOGORY RANKED & LISTED WIT DHA REST & STILL I BELIEVE 4 THINGZ ALWAYZ GET WORST B4 BETTA WEN U CAN TRULY ACHIEVE SO UNTIL THEN AS HUMAN WE ALL CONTINUE 2 GRIEVE