The Life She Can't Live

It’s the solace she seeks
As she drifts off to sleep
In the day or the night she can’t care

She escapes from her life
Where she is, where she’s been
It’s a life that to live she just can't bear anymore

All the things she has done
With her hands or a gun
Leaving death when she meets someone new

With money to burn
She spends none that she’s earned
And her conscience is eating her quickly away

When she wakes to the phone that rings her out of her sleep
She knows she will meet in a bar on some street
Someone sitting alone while they wait for the date they will meet

They won’t know til the end
It’s the last night that they’ll spend
In a room with a woman alone in a bed

And she'll drift home when she’s done
To climb Into bed all alone
And this time the pills will make sure that she sleeps

As she slipped away
She prayed forgiveness on this final day
For things that were done just for money they’d pay

And her handlers will ring on the phone on some day
And wonder what happened to the woman they pay
All alone with her deeds on her final day

She lays in the sleep of the dead in her bed
With no thoughts of having to kill in her head
With a smile on her face finally