I'm Sorry

The world I live in
I feel all I do is sin
I feel this is the end
All of these rules bend
and break to the depths of despair
to the abyss of inevitability
Can this world see me for me?
Not the tears they see me cry
All I feel are lies, they despise me
They do
I feel so blue
I have no clue
What to do next I mean
You have not seen what I've seen
Heard what I've heard
Felt what I felt here
Nowadays I fear
Not of death, of life as a tear-
It rolls down my face to join the others down near;
Near the sunshine that used to be
The place where God's smiling at me
He's proud, really proud
But now, it's a dark cloud
The shadows are coming
The Devil is humming
I am running.
I look up to see him
"God, are you mad?" I say
"You are not the same." He praised
He looks at me and I see his place
"Courtney AshLee? What a disgrace!"
I heard what he said, I bowed, pleaded, I cried
"I'm sorry God, I'm sorry! I really tried!"
He looks at me; His eyes in debate
"I'm sorry Courtney, but it's too late"
That's me, I did everything wrong
But is the Devil where I belong?
I'll try harder I will!
But You won't want me still
Just like Momma, Heather, and Nick, You'll leave
Well, do what You believe
I want You to also be happy
So go on without me
But just to You, Momma, Heather, and Nick
Where my blood runs so deep and thick
When the nights are so dark and starry
Well, I guess I'll just say it, I'm sorry