An unkind hand..

I was dumb enough to believe that we were like a movie destined for a happy ending..
but i was caught up in the high school "love"
...& you were caught up in the thrill of it.
little did i know those same hands you brushed across my cheek with...
..you placed in my face with rage
the curly hair you seemed to adore became a place to pull out..
..my heart i thought was safe became your strings to play with..always with the girls you swore you would never be with...
i had to pick myself off the floor that night..i was broken..never the girl i used to be but every girl you pushed me to be..
being abused by you was one of the pits of my life..
you looked me in my eyes and you saw pain but still love and you ruined my life..you ruined me..
so i cried, more drops than the ocean or sea..
i did you well, never lied or cheated just my heart you left bleeding out, crying out, stressed out, pushed out of my element, and you the one to blame for this..now I'm changing shit..
playing you better than you ever played me and hurting you more than your hands did to me..you thought you ruined me but i came to a quick recovery and i let you see you could never really control this..