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Hindsight is 20/20
I wanted it too much
desperately
but I wasn't ready
so I rushed it
overcompensating due to temporary opinions and underestimating my own value
I suppose it's my fear of being alone
or all this love I've saved up to give to someone else
saving so little for myself
running frenzied on the hamster wheel of
"see me" "pick me" "love me"
forgetting that I am enough
just me
regardless of the scars and flaws
I am enough
I remembered it
but I'm afraid it's already too late
So it's okay if you leave me baby
I understand
it's not you
it's me
Published 18th Jan 2016
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19th Jan 2016 2:55am
Beautiful,
We sometimes want to be loved so much that we sometimes settle for less than we deserve. Not saying that there is anything wrong with the other person... They just might not be alway we need or want. So we are left unhappy an sometimes make the other person unhappy. It is a bad place to be especially if the other person is in love with you. We can make them miserable. Sometimes we have to be honest with ourselves and the other. I really am rambling on because it brings back memories.
Very honest write.
Keith
We sometimes want to be loved so much that we sometimes settle for less than we deserve. Not saying that there is anything wrong with the other person... They just might not be alway we need or want. So we are left unhappy an sometimes make the other person unhappy. It is a bad place to be especially if the other person is in love with you. We can make them miserable. Sometimes we have to be honest with ourselves and the other. I really am rambling on because it brings back memories.
Very honest write.
Keith
23rd Jan 2016 11:50pm
You make a great point, everything that looks good to us may not be good for us. And to try to force something, especially when it comes to love and relationships, is to void it of anything beautiful and true... Your ramble is always welcome here Keith, and always appreciated...
19th Jan 2016 5:03am
OhMyGoodness! Mighty fine writing, impressive flow and powerful message, beauty! Indeed hindsight is 20/20 when you've already gone through the storm of your test, because without it, there's no testimony, no wisdom or guideline to do things differently, act differently, react differently etc... Those heartbreaks and aches prepares us for future mistakes, cushioning our fall(s).
"running frenzied on the hamster wheel of
"see me" "pick me" "love me"
forgetting that I am enough
just me
regardless of the scars and flaws
I am enough" < ---- I'm crushing on this!
"running frenzied on the hamster wheel of
"see me" "pick me" "love me"
forgetting that I am enough
just me
regardless of the scars and flaws
I am enough" < ---- I'm crushing on this!
23rd Jan 2016 11:44pm
Thank you darling Rain... Indeed, so much was learned during this test. Should I ever have the chance to take it again, I'll definitely have the answers.
