Erebus

I'm really getting sick and tired of no one believing me,
being constantly judged by the color of my skin and the behavior that stands in the way of my age gains the attention of my mentality..
i'm sick of it ,
 quite frankly im embarrassed of it.
 but most of all,
 i know its not my fault, and im not a victim.... everyone just knows how to manipulate me. and its
ow-full.
its ow-full being this way sometimes. being incapable of controlling certain things in your life.
being told how much you can eat
be told how much you can do
only limits you as you path gets thinner from every direction you go.
 its either do that or be in controlled.
 which is an option. im really tired of being deprived by.
im not stupid, and im not weak, and im tired of being portrayed they the way people think
and talked down in a certain way, just because of the the way im not seen as insightful.
its unfair and unnatural... and don't ever get me as being ungrateful.
 the horror that lies in these fears of human rituals
are just somethings that are preternatural, and when it comes to some it up,
im not that fickle.
or hard to handle, inf fact with facing conflicts like this i find myself to be much stronger than i was before.
even when times do seem to get at its darkest, a light in me seems to shine bright inside it and open at its brightest.

telling me... their is some peace in this darkness.

but only if you find it.