I'm going to lose

I'm used to the drugs I use  
I'm used to the self abuse  
even to the drinks when I do  
but because of you, I know it, I'm going to lose  
 
Forget about going guano  
You're the compromise in disguise  
I'm the lies that wanna be right
but because of you, I know it, I'm going to die  
 
You make me wanna cry  
So I close my eyes, trying to dream off to the sky    
Then took a man by his side  
said, "can i get sip" from that drink he hides  
and now because of you, I wanna die  
 
because of me, I have to wear long sleeves  
because of me, the drugs and daydreams
because of me, because of me, because of me
but because of you, I know it, I'm going to lose