Yet again....

And here I go again.
Walking this path that never ends.
A perpetual spiral circling me,
A dark path with a dismal glee.
"Hello darkness, my old friend"
As my mind slips away, yes yet again.
Nothing to comfort me for I walk alone,
And once again,
I can feel the cold reach my bones.
A feeling I thought had withered away
Comes back strong on this wet winter day.
But maybe it's my fault,
For denying the warmth.
And believing I'm fine
And not coming fourth
To my faults and my demons
So willing to play.
Who love to take over me
Day by day.
Why can't they vanish?
Just disappear?
So for once in this life
My mind could ring clear.
With bright thoughts and a future
I can hear.
But instead my mind works backwards
And I'm here stuck in fear.