Brown leaves

Across the street I see the trees with brown leaves
it's almost time for christmas eve

No family, like a winter breeze
it's almost time for christmas eve

And family knows not, the pain that grows
when I've got nothing to show, I say "Fuck man, this blows"  
And don't lie, don't deny, it's the kind of pain that makes us
wanna cry

Hide the pain when the kids come again
makes me want to push em away
and there's a haunting face, stuck in time, stuck in place
the disappointment on a child's face that makes me
feel out of place

Oh Santa Clause, won't you ride on the shooting star
I wished upon yesterday
I'll even lay your favorite kind of pay
Cookies and milk, just how you're built
Then I remember what came

A Christmas that's going to leave
like the brown leaves on a christmas tree
but hey that's okay, shrug it away
look forwards for new year's day

At least I'll be able to get drunk and play
because as always
christmas came and left away