I'm Inadequate. It's not Impossible. But Improbable.

I walk into the Gymnasiam,
And it's jam-packed with
Hundreds of students.
Throughout those students,
I spot you in an instant.
You're sitting up in the bleachers,
Your hair tied back,
As usual.
Your're wearing my
favorite shirt of yours.
You stand out in the whole crowd,
Like a rose in a bed of thistles.
I could see you from miles away,
You smile so bright,
Shining like a star in the dead of night.
There are cheers and loud music playing,
Everyone is warming up and excited about
The coming basketball game.
I cant even hear what the person sitting next to me is saying
Because it's so loud in here.
Your way across the whole Gym
Yet I can hear your vivacious, bubbly laugh.
Your sitting with some of your friends,
Having such a good time.
You're happy,
So im happy.
But I wish you were happy because of me.
Im happy because of you.
 
I sit against the wall,
On the court floor.
They throw up the basketball.
Everyone cheers and screams.
I try to watch the game but
I cant help looking at you all the time.
I wish we could sit together.
It would be so much fun.
I could be myself instead of sitting
Here pretending im truly happy.
Im not fully happy.
Im not with you.
It's half-time and they're playing a few songs.
I start to dance a little and fool around with my friends.
Then they play a certain song,
That brings me to my knees.
And I sit down again.
That song was one that we sang together,
But the words are about you I swear.
It describes how you are sometimes.
The times where I feel left out.
When I dont even seem to be there.
Oh, I hate those times.
 
The final shot is made.
"Buzz.. Buzz"
Goes the scoreboard
One last time.
The game is over,
It's time to leave, now.
I have to say goodbye,
To something I didnt actually have.
So I just say it to myself.
I look down at my feet.
Im ashamed of myself.
Angry that im not good enough,
For you to love me as much as I love you.
For being so inadequate.
I know you love me,  
You've informed me time and time before.
But not as much as I do,
I know that for a fact.
I can tell the difference.
Plus, no one has ever loved someone  
Like I love you.
But for us to be together forever,
By each other's sides,
Isn't impossible.
But. . .
Improbable.