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Locked in sadness
It's the hidden things which are always the strongest,
And behind my mask my emotions run so deep, and with them my sadness manifests, now my hope is shaken and weak.
I'm stuck in a circular limbo and I don't know what too do,
My thoughts are so low and my days are fruitless and blue.
It's only me in my head,
Just me on my own,
With my heart wishing it was dead
Because my head is so alone.
So I write this poem with tears in my eyes, saying things that I can't share aloud, hoping that an angel hears my cries and finds me in this chaotic crowd.
It's torture to suppress the feelings that I alone can't mend,
And agony for the emotions that I can't defend,
So with no other escape I give up trying and let them rend.
Yet I still wear my mask and lie,
Lie and say I'm okay,
Lie to myself and pray,
Lay in my bed and shrink away,
And scream in my head to just run far away.
And behind my mask my emotions run so deep, and with them my sadness manifests, now my hope is shaken and weak.
I'm stuck in a circular limbo and I don't know what too do,
My thoughts are so low and my days are fruitless and blue.
It's only me in my head,
Just me on my own,
With my heart wishing it was dead
Because my head is so alone.
So I write this poem with tears in my eyes, saying things that I can't share aloud, hoping that an angel hears my cries and finds me in this chaotic crowd.
It's torture to suppress the feelings that I alone can't mend,
And agony for the emotions that I can't defend,
So with no other escape I give up trying and let them rend.
Yet I still wear my mask and lie,
Lie and say I'm okay,
Lie to myself and pray,
Lay in my bed and shrink away,
And scream in my head to just run far away.
Published 13th Dec 2015
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Anonymous
13th Dec 2015 11:59pm
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I always read someone in thanks when they put me on their RL..
Very happy i read this. Hunny..im manic deppressive. I do alright most times..but when my thoughts start circling my mind without release..it becomes a tempestuous thing..this scream behind a mask..i understand and it is frightening and lonely.
Writing helps. So does talking..i had just left this quote for a friend..i think part of it suits this as well perfectly.
Brillaint, beautiful write...really enjoyed and appreciated your vullnerable honesty. Im adding it to my list..this is not tit for tat..a well deserved place.
Much love
Jennifer
People think that talking is a sign of thinking. It isn't, for the most part' on the contrary, it's a mechanical dodge of the body to relieve oneself of the strain of thinking, just as exercising the muscles helps the body to become temporarily unconscious of its weight, its pain, its weariness, and the foreknowledge of its doom.
A Crowley...Diary of a Drug fiend
Very happy i read this. Hunny..im manic deppressive. I do alright most times..but when my thoughts start circling my mind without release..it becomes a tempestuous thing..this scream behind a mask..i understand and it is frightening and lonely.
Writing helps. So does talking..i had just left this quote for a friend..i think part of it suits this as well perfectly.
Brillaint, beautiful write...really enjoyed and appreciated your vullnerable honesty. Im adding it to my list..this is not tit for tat..a well deserved place.
Much love
Jennifer
People think that talking is a sign of thinking. It isn't, for the most part' on the contrary, it's a mechanical dodge of the body to relieve oneself of the strain of thinking, just as exercising the muscles helps the body to become temporarily unconscious of its weight, its pain, its weariness, and the foreknowledge of its doom.
A Crowley...Diary of a Drug fiend
15th Dec 2015 5:58pm
Thank you for the feed back, I'm glad you enjoyed it. You're very correct, talking or writing helps to spill out some of that extra water you have in your cup to help stop you from literally spelling over emotionally. However I'm too proud and 'my problems my solution' sort of person so I've never been able to talk about any problems ever, so instead posting it in literature where only strangers will see it helps me without me making myself look the opposite to who I people see me as
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