It Doesn't Get Easier

Thinking about you makes my heart weak.
Reliving our memories makes it hard to sleep.
They all said it'd get easier, but they lied.
It hasn't eased up even though I've tried.

I convince myself you're looking down smiling.
It's not good enough, I just end up crying.
I want you to be here not wherever you are.
Can't you see this painful, never ending scar?

I still cry everyday and every night.
In this dark world you were my light.
Why did you have to go?
Did you think it wouldn't show?

Why couldn't you stay for us?
I feel like you ran away on purpose.
Did you expect me not to care?
None of this is even fair.

I still need you now and everyday.
I want to hear the things you'd say.
I can't survive without seeing you again.
I don't believe at all that this is the end.