As I slam-Pathetic thoughts swarm me

It's hurts, the inadequate adventures of darkness crawling through my veins.
It hurts, the uneasy feeling as you walk up to me and I realize you feel the same.

It hurts, the way I fall asleep on the same bed as you 2ft away.
It hurts, knowing the father of my child and I can't be okay.

It hurts, knowing that I can't do it- I can't feel like I'm worthy.
It hurts, looking back so many years and never really felt surely...

It hurts, when my heart breaks from the hate in your words.
It hurts, when you judge things I've left unheard..

It hurts the way you can't understand my hate of life.
It hurts how you judge me and tell me I'm right..

I deserve to die, it hurts
I deserve to cry, it hurts
I can't feel right, it hurts
I live for the night, it hurts...

I'm sorry son, I'm really done
Stay with your dad- I'm not coming home
I got high again-where I am is unknown.

I fucked up I'm not thinking right-
In the morning I won't remember where I am tonight...

I slammed my medicine now I'm alright..
Fuck I can't even remember to rhyme
Sometime I wonder .. Why waste my time??