Nothing Left

I take the bottle of pills,
I drink the bottle of jd,
This is a deadly combination,
The note is written,
They now know why,
I can't be in this world any longer,
All I seem to feel is pain,
Next thing I know I wake up in a hospital bed,
They found me to early again,
Why won't they let me be at peace?
I have nothing left in this world,
I have no meaning,
So why should I stay?
I'll just od again.