God Forbid

Do my feelings not matter?
Does yours mean so much more?
If that’s the case, then I guess everyone for themselves
But don’t look at me like I’m so crazy
What the fuck would you know about it anyway?
Have yourself to blame, the way I acted so cold
Only wanted me when I’m broke
Chasing after me when I don’t care anymore

Not meant to be happy
This is how it always is
Not meant to be loved
This is how it always is
God forbid

I wanted to be helpful
But suddenly the sky turned dark
You became so misunderstood
Got tired of trying to understand
The way you pushed me back
Thinking I should have open arms when you run back
But not today, not ever again
Have my own problems to deal with
And all you ever did was break my heart

Not meant to be happy
This is how it always is
Not meant to be loved
This is how it always is
God forbid

Never ever give all of your heart
To someone so obviously fucked up
They’ll only ever suck your life away
For they could pretend that they’re not completely miserable

Take a knife and fucking die
Sounds so cold, but if your life means that little
Then why should I fight for it when you won’t fight for yourself?
I was willing to risk it all for you
Go to the ends of the earth to see you smile
And just like that, it was over
Never thought I would recover
But I did recover even stronger
So when you came back
You were someone my mind couldn’t even recognize anymore