why?

You was suppose to be there
You never was
It hurts my soul knowing now you never will
I thought we could work it out one day
I guess not
You was always gone
What happened?  
What made you do this?
Are you heartless?
Do you eve care?
My heart is broken
You left me here with hands in my lap
I can't wrap my head around your mess
Why fuck up?
I needed you?
Where were you?