April

Smile so deadly,
Intoxicated off the chart.

You were never there for me,
You sat infront of me with your bottle.

You spat insults in my face.
Claimed you should of swallowed me instead.

It isn't just I you attack,
You have four children,
But I'll be damned if you speak to my younger siblings the way you have to my older brother and I.

I blame myself for your not wanting me.
I blame myself for not telling you that I love you.

Now it's too late,
As you drank yourself to death.

You leave your children behind,
..stuck in the system.

So lost and damaged.

I fight everyday for the explanation to why it is I am alive still.

Everyday becomes darker.
Thank you.

For teaching me how to truly hurt.