I remember he said call me uncle Tom

 

I had another nightmare last night. I have these fucking flash backs, I wake up yelling for help. I break my teeth in my sleep, I bite to hold in my scream. My mind is always playing with me. Look what you did to me, I am a beast under this skin. I hear you laughing while you kill the cats. I feel the thick warm blood as you pour it over me. I see your eyes as you look at me and your voice saying “tell anyone, and I will do this to everyone you love”. I think of my mom, I think of my baby brothers. Robby and Tommie are crying saying “stop dad, stop”. You hit Robby so hard he fly’s to the other side of the room. Tommie whispers to me “I am sorry”, I close my eyes.

Chills, running across me
Slipping, I am slipping
Weakness, it is not in me
Why is he winning?

Thinking, I am always thinking
What is your motive?
I am watching, always watching
On my knees, I control all things

This dark room is spinning
I am dizzy… round, and round me
What are you doing?
I can see clearly, down on my knees… I control things

I hear you laughing, I did not know this was funny
Your eyes are gleaming
Is that sincerity? that bounced over me
Do you feel strong now? are you happy now?

A woman’s real power is…
The secret to what makes a man feel, complete and in control
I learned this the hard way, when you tore me: I learned it from you
Thats why, I do what I do

Its in the conditioning… it is how you raised me
They call it susceptibility; it is how you trained me
I was a just a child; why did you did this to me?
I can’t change it now; it is like blood… that is pumping in my veins

Chills running all over my body
I hate sleeping… I hate dreaming
Weakness seeps from me
I am a jaded perfume… I know you smell me

Don’t worry… don't worry… don’t worry
I will grow up one day, then will you go away?
Your like a vampire, always you drink from me… you love seeing me bleed
I learned I am in control of you, here on my knees

I cant hurt you, I cant hurt… hurt you
Even though I remember, all the things you love to do to me
I just wanted to say, I cant sleep because of you
Because of me… you will never feel complete

You thought all this time… you were in charge…you were winning
Yes you physically controlled me… yes you ripped and tore through and through me
Yes you did so many cruel things…I endured all your torment and training
You made me; the only thing you will always need
Now I am a monster… I am a beast
In that cage of deviant miseries…
I became this person,the person you made me
Now I control you on my knees

Chills running across me
Slipping, I am slipping
Weakness is not in me
Why is he winning

Thinking… I am always thinking
what is your motive?
I am watching…I am always watching
On my knees …I control all things

This dark room is spinning
I am dizzy… round, and round me
What are you doing?
I can see clearly… on my knees, I control things

You like this… you want it
I see your mouth getting wet
Why did you lick your lips?
Watch me I am changing
My mind is reverting
You want this… you need it
Beg me… beg me… beg me
On your knees… look up at me
How does it feel?
Now I control your needs?
You created this
You made me this way
You turned me into a beast
Your mind is hungry
Your hands are burning
Your dick is jumping
Beg me… beg me… beg me