But Do I Miss You?

I have been racing
With the thoughts deep in my brain
And have finally made peace
That we will never be again

Do I miss you?
Through it all?
I guess...
But I am to be a mother
and my feelings have progressed

I feel a little forced
Into feeling the way I do
But that's life and it goes on
So numb is my soul
And I'm pushing through

I have switched off to emotion
When the memory returns
I feel nothing at this point
No room for more burn

The cold ice gel
That cools my skin
When that wears off?
Do I miss you?

Do I miss you??

Do I miss you???

.......

Does it matter?