Disposal of self

take my eyes
i dont want to use them anymore
all they show is pain
misguiding views
that only lead you to loss
trying to abstruct my sight
to black out this misery
creeping its way through the cracks between my fingers
even blind i would be left to see the world i once new
through my minds eye
shrouded by memories that once tore my heart to shreads
cant you see it ?
cant you feel it trickling down
built myself up into a form thats only function is what i can offer
getting nothin in return
but isnt this what you've always wanted ?
what has been keeping you awake at night ?
plauging your dreams ?
funny how the smallest things
meaningless to most
can kill me while im still breathing
and bind my hands as an avalanch is coming down
just let it wash over
burrie me beneath it all
consuming my thoughts
dragging me away
and i wont even kick and scream
welcome it with open arms
let come whatever may
just make sure you sharpen the tip
because my heart has hardened itself into a massive callouse
just stick it in and let it drain
as i go still and drop the blade
its self inflicted but this has to be the better way
when you dont think you can go on
not one more step
I exhale before the fatal puncture
to deny myself my last breath
and let agony befall me
no amount of preasure can stop this bleeding
its internal from wounds you've inflicted but can not see
becouse you"ve taken my eyes
and i can no longer see you