I'm Broken

How many times can my heart shatter
into millions of pieces before killing me?
How much more pain could I withstand before
it breaks me down completely?
 
Living like this is hell
every word, every gesture measured
not knowing if I've any effect
if I've any chance of winning
back your love that I've so carelessly lost,
am I passing this test?
or failing as with all the others
you sent past me
without me ever knowing.
 
I cannot learn to unlove you
I don't know how you have done it
maybe you never truly loved me
but if I have to believe that
I won't be able to believe in anything again.
 
So this is me...
naked,thousand times broken
into millions of pieces.
I have nothing left to loose
nothing left unscathed
I will walk this road
begging for any scraps
lapping up any stray affection
I will at least attempt
to get back what I have lost
before I take my
final road of no return...