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Dirty Lily
Impure, undignified thoughts
With very little respect
Unclassy with much might
Stored in a cosy closet.
Strength is all I admire
Yet I'd let him do as he pleases
And his orders submerge me like a flood
But for all I bow, still this one desire
This white lily wishes
It hadn't been drenched in blood.
Violent, unthinkable thoughts
Struggling not to stay secret
They come up every fortnight
Banging the walls of the closet
If only some things would be simpler
If only I could put out that rotten fire
If only I weren't so weak
All that is taboo in this world
I have thought it without a word
With my anger climbing its peak...
How can you say you like me
And hate half of what I am ?
I'm frustrated, endlessly
So tell me
Why can't I be a man ?
With very little respect
Unclassy with much might
Stored in a cosy closet.
Strength is all I admire
Yet I'd let him do as he pleases
And his orders submerge me like a flood
But for all I bow, still this one desire
This white lily wishes
It hadn't been drenched in blood.
Violent, unthinkable thoughts
Struggling not to stay secret
They come up every fortnight
Banging the walls of the closet
If only some things would be simpler
If only I could put out that rotten fire
If only I weren't so weak
All that is taboo in this world
I have thought it without a word
With my anger climbing its peak...
How can you say you like me
And hate half of what I am ?
I'm frustrated, endlessly
So tell me
Why can't I be a man ?
Published 19th Sep 2015
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27th Sep 2015 4:52pm
The suggestion here is that the attributes described in a woman would be tolerated in a man but perhaps the problem is with what society sees as desired behavior in males?
The problem (imo) is that society makes gender into a fixed thing, and that you are maybe not forced, but expected to fit into certain behaviors, certain attributes, and that getting out of these little boxes can be a painful struggle...
Well, in short, I have difficulties accepting the concept of separate gender roles ^^"
My personnal position is that I am genetically female, but quite confused about my gender identity. This song in particular was written in a moment of frustration over the fact that I can't be a man, as the last line tells you.
Well, in short, I have difficulties accepting the concept of separate gender roles ^^"
My personnal position is that I am genetically female, but quite confused about my gender identity. This song in particular was written in a moment of frustration over the fact that I can't be a man, as the last line tells you.
28th Sep 2015 7:49pm
The game of expectations can be stifling especially when it includes the family.
