When I Couldn't Stop

When I couldn't stop using
It was mostly me I was abusing
I lied, I stole
Kept digging myself into a deeper hole
I really feel I ruined my life
Because by now I could've been his wife
But instead he just kicked me out
Didn't try to help me or want to figure it out
I've done some real terrible things
Drugs had me dancing on their strings
When I was using nothing mattered
Always felt beat up and battered
I also felt so lost and alone
Like walking around like some kind of drone