Love

I banned you
I rejected you
I hate you,
Yet I see that you have made yourself back in my life.
In times of leisure, all I want is what you offer.
I want your heart,
your laugh,
and I even want you keeping me warm at night.
It makes me sick!
I hate how thick you make my chest,
I hate how you make my fingers shake,
and I mostly hate how I run from you,
yet somehow,
you catch up to me.
I wanna rip out my eyes at the thought of you,
yet recently,
I have wished to be blind.