Here I Go...

Have you ever felt so alone that you wolcome lonelness with open arms to have someonee to talk to. your mind is spinning and you have thoughts as dark as night and cold as ice. when you see me dont say hello or how are you. your fake to me if i told you how i felt your imind would shater in a billion pieces and confined in your head would be all the dark images and lonelyness that is in my hear. a mind can be a cold and lonly place where it confuses you desives you tortures you and kills you.."hold on your help is on the way" thats what eveyone tells you...have they been there...has there heart been shattered in a million pieces and then blown up into atoms of deep space...people that confort need to go they havent felt what i felt its like i am swimming in a sea of sad faces and all of them are mine...you see me whith a smile on my face and a good tone n my voice...but my heart is crying it weeps and it screams its just wants love and tenderness...its like a child with tape on its mouth its screaming and no one is listening Gos is her they tell me...where is he...hes everywhere right but does he hear my soul? my soul is torn its weak and wounded its been throught world war3 throught teh lies and fakeness and its wear and weak... its keeps fighting maybe one day this will end...i ask myself whats the point whats the point of going throught this when we all can take the easy way out and blow my brains out and watch my body squerm on the ground while my soul is leaking all over the floor there is only a few things that are stopping me and to be honost with you that list is running shorter everytime my mind races...i find less and less to care about each passing day...my hear is slowing down my mind is just dieing and no one can see when this is going to end...will my hear ever find peace and will my mind stop racing...if so when my time is running out you havent seen me you dont know me nore love me...you havent cared from the star so why start now...its all we ask for is some attention...get to know us...learn from us...dont dismiss us or miss use us...or torture me becasue i am smart nor good looking my hearts broken and soft its weak and it hurts...pray for me..protect me from me...dont lecture me support me and guide me...dont desive me and lie to me...trust me but dont undermind me...huge me and dont let go...let me be free...but dont restrict me in anything that i can do...LISTEN TO ME WHEN I AM SPEAKING...I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY...SO IN CLOSING LOVE ME FOR ME DONT CHANGE ME...