Trying to feel.

I always felt like nothing was real,
Just standing there, trying to feel.
Pain never satisfied me enough,
Wounds always made me tough.
Acting like everyone else.
I try to crawl back to the middle of my mind,
The only thing I find is broken memories and useless facts.
Why can't I feel heart break,
Why can't I feel that fear..
How do I bring myself to pick at that sore,
In my head.
Scratching away at my heart, peeling away the flesh.
I find nothing but scars.
Time can never bring me to feel,
What I really wanna feel inside.
Beyond my heart and into my soul.
I always feel like nothing is real,
I stand here trying to feel.
Trying to breathe.
Wounds never bring pain,
So I can never feel.
What I really wanna feel.